my monthly post.....

I started this blog to release some creativity ( which those around me will tell you I do not have enough to be releasing any extra) and to make myself have something to create a consistency in my life.   It seems the consistency is consistently monthly and so the amount of creativity is small. Anyway I am still trying to make myself keep on track.
I guess it all boils down to the fact that I am like all the other moms, gramms and nurses and wives out there.  I have way too much on my plate and I feel like if I am not doing for others then I am not doing what I am supposed to do.  Lately, my mom has been here with us.  She had hip surgery last month and is recovering here.  She is doing really well and making great progress.  I am a creature of habit and any little thing that upsets my schedule makes me feel crazy ( crazier).
I am on new meds for whatever I had going on before, the docs call it anxiety, I call it "everybody is on my last nerve" and I am much better now.   My cords are finally starting to untangle.  (see previous blog.)
My precious husband is rocking along and being a rock all along.  I am not sure how he keeps it all together and puts up with me but he does.....did I mention that he has pulled all his hair out?
Yesterday we had a house full of people here for an early supper.  Trying to keep things happy and light for mom.  My oldest brother is recovering from colon cancer and my son from knee surgery.  I thought "well this is really a sickly bunch".  We did have a good time tho and our 3 y/o granddaughter livened the whole afternoon up.  Gramms did get her into trouble when I asked her to show her great-unlcle how she could burp.  She is the only 3 year-old I know that can burp on demand and gets out a really good belch.   If you call it a belch now you will really get her wound up.
Like I have said before on this page and I will continue to repeat it for all of you and myself......lets try to be content in what we have and where we are.....If things are so bad then do something about it, don't just grumble and make all those around you miserable.   I am tired of people complaining and just making others miserable.  I refuse to let others dictate my mood, I will be content and happy.  So don't let others take your joy away from you....its yours.  It can only be taken away if you let it be taken.