Counting the days.....

In about 10 days my daughter will be here visiting from out of state with my granddaughter.  I can't wait and I was thinking of all the time we would have to be together.  Now I realize that I will have to work part of the time and she will only have 4 days here so it will be a whirlwind visit.  It seems like they all are anymore.  And when we go to visit the visits are fast, too fast.  There is just not enough time to catch up on everything, even tho we talk on the phone and e-mail and text everyday, nothing is like face to face and being able to hug.  I'm not wishing my life away, but I really am looking forward to heaven.  We will have time to enjoy each others company and bask in the presence of Jesus as well.  No jobs to rush off to, or phones to answer, just praising Jesus and enjoying one another.  When I get bogged down by all the rushing around and not enough time syndrome here on earth, I just stop to thank God that eventually I will be in heaven with Him and my children are saved and will be there too.  There will be enough time there.  So don't let today get you down, just look forward to eternity, its what we are all working toward anyway.
Have a great day!

What about those wedding vows?

When you said those vows, if you are married, did you really listen to them?  Did you think about them before you actually got married?  I probably  did not have a clue....well, no probably, I was in lust and just wanted some security.  I guess I thought I would get married and hoped that this time it would work out. (It  was the second time around) and if it didn't well, I guess I would just wing it.  Luckily,( really, luck had nothing to do with it) sometime around our 4th or 5th year of marriage we were saved and God sent a wonderful pastor and his wife that taught us about authority and family and marriage.  It was a life saver for us.  Since that time, I have watched marriages fall by the wayside, marriages that I thought were strong.   What people don't want to hear on the days before the big day is that there will be days that they will WANT to get a divorce, the thought of just walking out the door will seem like a wonderful idea.  But in reality, that will not solve the problems.  I told my son before he got married, there will come a time that you will want to divorce his precious wife to be and it will seem like the easiest way to fix things.  "Oh, mom, I love her so much, I cannot imagine anything that would make me feel that way."  Well, the rough days have come and gone, but fortunately they really do love each other and I do see a silver and probably a golden anniversary in their future.  But there will be more rough days.  My husband and I have been married almost 30 years and we still have some tough days, weeks etc.  I really thought when we got this age and this smart it would all be easy.  Here's a tip....... If you are not walking really close with Jesus and keeping your relationship in line with your spouse as well as with Jesus, you will continue to have  MAJOR problems.  No matter how many marriage conferences you go to, how many books you buy, how many videos you watch, how many friends you get advice from,......the only answer is to have a right relationship with Jesus and with your spouse.   I am working on a study about wives being submissive (well, that will shut down most of you), but I hope you stay with me and keep watching for the good stuff to come.   Have a great day!

Okay.....I am not consistent....

It seems like the harder I try the worse I get.  So I guess I will just go with the flow.   Things at work are smoothing out and I am not sure if its me or others but I am happy with the results and I am praising God for the peace that I have at work.  Its funny how things can be so bad and all of a sudden its all over.   I have been thinking about writing a book lately, well actually I have always wanted to write a book.  That is one of the things on my bucket list.  I really have a heart for wives that are struggling to be submissive and godly wives.  (Maybe when I figure it out I can write that book)  Another book I would like to write is about stay at home moms and how they can deal with the long days at home, make a transition from work to home,  and just keep their sanity doing it.  Two of my girls have done this and I have watched as they get slammed with the emotions and expectations (some unrealistic) that have come with the changes.  I made the change a couple of times and as I look back I realize that I could have done better and just didn't realize I was having such a hard time.  Then I went back to school at 45 and made a major life change that really caused all kinds of bumps in the road.  We tend to call it life, but really we bring a lot of the stuff on ourselves, and we wade through it and then wonder why we are so wiped out at the end.  DUH!!!   Anyway, as life rocks on it does have some really hard spots in it and we have to go through those spots.  I fully believe that God prepares us for those times and we can handle them, nothing says that it will be easy or a joyful experience or fun.  Sometimes we have to go through things to have the wisdom and knowledge to know how to help others at some later time, sometimes its to make us stronger to be able to handle a bigger event later on (isn't that encouraging?). But for what ever reason, God is totally in control, He never leaves us on our own.  I feel like God has brought me through some situations soley to be able to strengthen me and teach me so I can pass the strength and wisdom on to others.  What has God brought you through, or taught you and what are you doing with it?  If you are waiting for God to do something, maybe He is waiting for you to do something with what He has already given you.  Think about it.  I think I will try to make some progress toward using some of the things He has given me,  why don't you?

How blessed are you?

It really hasn't been long since I was on this site, I has a really good blog ( or so I thought) and when I started to post it disappeared!  Now when you ask the Lord to take control of a project you can expect Him to do things that you don't expect.  Anyway, here I am back and I am trusting that the Lord will take control and have me to put on this blog what He wants on the blog.

I am blessed beyond belief.  You probably are too if you just stop and think about it.  I heard a famous minister state on TV that we are the ones that determine how blessed we will be.....yippee....I determine to be REALLY blessed......oh wait there's a catch......by how obedient we are to Jesus.  Well, its not really a catch, but I am like a small child and even tho I know the right things to do, its not what I want to do.  Can you relate?
When you stop to think about your blessings remember not to take things for granted.  Things I use/see/have everyday some people never even would imagine having in their life.  I have a wonderful husband, some people cannot even imagine what that is like.  I have great kids, some people don't even know the whereabouts of their kids.

I do have a job, its stressful sometimes,  but its a good job.  Here it is Monday and I have been home all weekend and have my Pollyanna attitude back.  Hopefully, it will last until noon at least today.  :)
The Lord really does want to bless us and as my precious daughter-in-law reminded me this weekend, "we should do all things as unto the Lord."  I need to tatoo that somewhere on my body or better yet hang a sign in front of my eyes to remind my constantly.

Have a good day....or two...or three....and keep smiling...Jesus loves you and made you special for a purpose that only you can fulfill.   And if you let Jesus, He will work it in you if you let Him.

Does anyone interview well....

I am pretty good at handling myself, I can talk at anyone.  But I do not do well at interviews.  Yesteray I interviewed with a doctor for a job in his office.  He only asked 3 questions and I answered them, but when I left I thought "I could have answered those better".  It probably didn't help that I was called at work and they asked me to come ove on my lunch break, so basically I was really unprepared for an interview at that time.  I didn't have a choice thought, it was now or never.
That is how its going to be when Jesus calls us home.  He will call and we will go.  There will be no time to prepare for the questions so we can give just the right answers.  I know that He will ask questions and He will call us when we least expect it.  We better be ready, because there will be no second chance.   The best thing to do is be prepared all the time.  Make sure you are forgiven, you have forgiven others, there is no bitterness lurking in your heart and you are focused on Jesus, that way when He calls you will be ready to go and there will be no hesitation, and you will not miss out on that call and new precious home prepared just for you.  Get prepared......

Change

I keep waiting for life to get back to normal, and when I look around, my life has been like this for about 25 years so this could be normal for me.  My mom is recovering from surgery here at my house, which she does every 5 years or so.  My job is in turmoil and I am in indecision about whether to stay and tough out the turmoil or just leave and go to a new place of turmoil.  I am old enough to know that no place is perfect to work.  There are problems everywhere and drawbacks to every job.  The grass is never really greener.  Sometimes we just need to go through these times, but it seems like I keep going through them.  I decided that God is trying to teach me something and He tries every 5 years or so and either I don't learn the lesson or He moves me up to the next level.  I hope I am moving up.
When it comes down to the core of it all,  life is good.  I am so thankful for my family, my job ( some people don' t have jobs),  for my relationship with Jesus and all the things that He does walk me through.  Because no matter how bad I think things are, I know that Jesus will carry me through and nothing here on this earth can take mu soul....If it kills me physically, I will just head on out of here to heaven,  if things are just hard, it will just make me stronger.  I know that I will just be so strong by the time I am 60 that there will be no stopping me then.  Today I commit to be thankful for all things.....be thankful with me....for your kids, the air you breath, your job(no matter how you feel about it) and most of all be thankful that Jesus died on the cross for all our sins.  

Weekend comes to an end....

Well, the weekend is over and it feels like I just walked out of work on Friday....well I did work on Saturday morning.  I have a friend that used to tell me she would stay up late on Friday and Saturday nights because it made the weekend seem longer.  I thought she was crazy then.  Now I do the same thing AND I get up early on Sat and Sun mornings and will even stay up later on Sunday nights.  I have just started working five days a week instead of four days a week and it makes the weekends even shorter.  But, you know time is the same.....60 minutes in an hour, 24 hours in a day.  How I chose to spend my time is guided by what priorities I place in my life.  Today we went to church and spent time with family.  Then my husband and I played video games.  ( hey, its what we do)  When I look back on the weekend, I will not say "I wish I had spent time doing other things".  As I get older I learn to pick and chose what is really important.  I know that the sheets need to be changed on the bed, but mother needed to have her toenails done and so the sheets will wait.  I probably could have done something more profitable than play video games but someday I will look back and it will be a precious memory of the times that we played video games and laughed and worked so hard to finished a game.  Its all about what is important.  Don't let others decide what is important for you, decide for yourself, then you will have less regrets to look back on.  Think about your choices and what kind of memories you are making for yourself ( and your family).  If you don't have some great memories building up because you are so busy you may need to change some priorities.  Get out there and make some memories with someone you love......you will not regret it ......have a great day.

Paranoia is rampant.....

You know how people always feel like someone is out to get them?  She wants my husband, he wants my job,  etc.....well, I am no different.  I know everyone wants my husband because he is so wonderful.  He takes perfect care of me.  He is retired and drives me everywhere ( I hate to drive) even back and forth to work EVERYDAY.  He does most of the house work...like I say he is great, so why wouldn't everyone want him?  I also have a great job, but I don't feel like everyone wants my job.  I just feel like there are people who want me to get out of my job.  There is one person always trying to find something wrong with the way I do my job, always criticizing and always on my back about every little thing.  There are days that I think I cannot walk thru the door one more time, but I do.
Now I know that my husband is not perfect, he is just a man.  He is a wonderful man and I love him dearly but that still does not make him perfect.  I have Jesus, and I share Jesus with others around me regularly.  Jesus is perfect.  Jesus can do so much more for people than my husband could ever do, but people still want him instead of Jesus.  Why do you suppose that is?  Jesus is the one and only way to get through this life and into heaven.  While my husband is a godly man and can do a lot of things, he cannot get me into heaven.  I need Jesus for that.   Having said that, as well as there is Jesus, there is also a spiritual enemy trying to do everything he can to keep me out of heaven.  He is always on my back , nipping at my heels, telling me that I will not make it to heaven, telling me that I am not good enough, not really worthy to be a child of God.  Some days I think I cannot face this enemy one more day and I let myself slip into a pity party and just go along with this enemy.  Then I look at those around me that are struggling and don't know Jesus and don't have a clue of the wonderful peace and comfort that is there for them.
Yep, I have a wonderful husband, but I also have Jesus.  I have a great job, I also have an enemy that nips at me constantly.  But, you know what?  If Jesus can deliver me from the firey darts of the spiritual enemy, then this earthly enemy can't really harm me.
Next time you feel those darts coming, cry out to Jesus, He is the Deliverer.  Just cry out to Jesus and let Him carry you through all these trials.  He can do it and best of all He will do it for you.
Have a great day........Let me hear from you if you are enjoying the blogs

Back to regular routine.....

Back to work today after a long weekend that was really short.  Had call part of the weekend and worked and a lot going on at home so just like everyone else the weekend seemed like it flew by.  Life is like that.  We get busy and before we know it our kids are grown and the things we meant to teach them or do with them its too late.  Before you know it your parents are old or pass away and those things that you were always going to tell them are unsaid.  I wrote a note to my dad before he died telling him how much he meant to me.  Unfortunately it took a terminal illness to make me do that.  I wish I had done it years before.    My dad loved my unconditionally.  I always knew that no matter what I could go to him and he would help me and keep on loving me.  When I learned about being saved it was so easy for me to believe that I had a heavenly father that would love me unconditionally because I had an earthly father that loved me that way. Now I try to tell people how much I care for them,  I am still not as responsible about it as I should be tho.  Make an effort today to tell at least one person how much you love/appreciate them and what a difference they make in your life.

My mom is staying here with us and recovering from hip surgery, and I may grumble sometimes and get tired and am not as patient as I should be, but it truly is an honor to be able to care for a parent.  Many people don't have parents to care for.  If you have a parent that you are not speaking to or have no contact with for whatever reason remember this:  God gave you those parents for a reason, if you are not speaking to them of your choice then you are saying that God is wrong and you are treading on thin ice. If it is their choice, pray they have a change of heart.  If it is an abusive or harmful relationship, then you have made the right choice.  

God is parent to us all, you can count on Him for all things.

Have a good day and remember to keep your joy and don't let anyone take it away from you.....its your choice.

What!!!!!two days in a row?????Who is this woman that has taken over my blog page....

It's a holiday for me.....I do not understand how the 4th is on Sunday so they close everything on Monday....well almost everything.  The department I work in at the hospital is closed but the call team is working.   I was called in last night for 3 hours....good times.   Actually, as I have said before I love my job.  I love the docs, the work, the patients, and most of the time my co-workers.   You do not have to love or be best friends with your co-workers.  You only have to work with them 8-10-12 hours a day, then you go home.  I do not live with any of them.  And I can tolerate any thing for that long. ( and I do get breaks that I can get away for a few minutes)
I love music and I love to sing.  Now I never claimed to be a great singer or even a good singer.  I just love to sing.   I hum all the time at work, home, everywhere. And I have hummed as long as I can remember, literally all my life.  Last week a patient was really nervous about her procedure and I told her that we would be right with her and we would play some soothing music if she would like and it would all be ok and over before she knew it.   As things progressed and the procedure drew to an end, I commented to her "Now see that wasn't so bad was it?"  Her reply was, "When you told me there would be music, I thought that would be good and the music was good, but when you started that humming, girl, it was bad."   (I blamed the drugs she had been given during the procedure) My co-workers just knodded in agreement (with her).  Now I am not a person to get my feelings hurt easily and this did not hurt my feelings, everyone is entitled to their own opinions.  I did tell my team I wish they would have told me instead of letting me run around embarrassing myself.
For the rest of the day I did my best not to hum,  I really tried to be quiet.  Now we have music playing in the procedure rooms most of the time and the patient usually gets to choose what type of music they prefer (within reason).  I do not always hum the music that is playing.  I have my own tunes in my head and am reminded that I need to "get with the tunes in the room"
I tell all this to say.....Just because you've done something all your life, does not mean its right or you are good at it and you should continue doing it.   Even at 54 sometimes you need to realize that a change could be a good thing.  I think I hum because I am happy and content.  I have a happiness inside of me that I know no one can take because Jesus placed there.  After a week of trying NOT to hum, I will not promise that I won't hum or even burst out in a song, its part of me, but I'll try to do it in the shower or in the car and not inflict my voice on anyone else.  Again no promises.
What are you inflicting on others?   Are you happy and content?  Happiness and contentment is there for all who want it........just ask......last time I checked Jesus still had plenty.

my monthly post.....

I started this blog to release some creativity ( which those around me will tell you I do not have enough to be releasing any extra) and to make myself have something to create a consistency in my life.   It seems the consistency is consistently monthly and so the amount of creativity is small. Anyway I am still trying to make myself keep on track.
I guess it all boils down to the fact that I am like all the other moms, gramms and nurses and wives out there.  I have way too much on my plate and I feel like if I am not doing for others then I am not doing what I am supposed to do.  Lately, my mom has been here with us.  She had hip surgery last month and is recovering here.  She is doing really well and making great progress.  I am a creature of habit and any little thing that upsets my schedule makes me feel crazy ( crazier).
I am on new meds for whatever I had going on before, the docs call it anxiety, I call it "everybody is on my last nerve" and I am much better now.   My cords are finally starting to untangle.  (see previous blog.)
My precious husband is rocking along and being a rock all along.  I am not sure how he keeps it all together and puts up with me but he does.....did I mention that he has pulled all his hair out?
Yesterday we had a house full of people here for an early supper.  Trying to keep things happy and light for mom.  My oldest brother is recovering from colon cancer and my son from knee surgery.  I thought "well this is really a sickly bunch".  We did have a good time tho and our 3 y/o granddaughter livened the whole afternoon up.  Gramms did get her into trouble when I asked her to show her great-unlcle how she could burp.  She is the only 3 year-old I know that can burp on demand and gets out a really good belch.   If you call it a belch now you will really get her wound up.
Like I have said before on this page and I will continue to repeat it for all of you and myself......lets try to be content in what we have and where we are.....If things are so bad then do something about it, don't just grumble and make all those around you miserable.   I am tired of people complaining and just making others miserable.  I refuse to let others dictate my mood, I will be content and happy.  So don't let others take your joy away from you....its yours.  It can only be taken away if you let it be taken.